On Privacy

Anyone who has read my blog can tell that I am very open and public about most things in my life.  You all know that I'm in debt.  You all know that I have significant health problems.  You all know that I'm still grieving over my grandmother's death.  You know that I generally want to be a good person.  You know that I am like most people, trying to get over life's struggles.

There is a part of me that wants to delete this blog at least once a week because I've said too much.  There are posts that I don't know if I should have written.  There are definitely people who I hope don't know this blog exists because I don't want them to have access to me in any way.  Simply because I don't want them to know a damn detail of my life.  I've certainly censored myself on numerous occasions, just in case. 

I keep this blog up because it helps to write things down.  It helps to talk about things.  I also like the public forum.  I've made friends because of this random public space.  Friends who are dear to me.  Friends from whom I seek advice. 

I've also talked so openly about my health struggles because if I can help just one person with Fibro find some sense of relief or community, then I've done some good in the world. 

But there are still those days when I want to take it down.  When I think I've said too much.  When I think I've let the world in and I feel like I've let my guard down.  When I feel vulnerable that people think less of me for who I am or what I've said. 

Comments

[cjcrash]

I think all of us with a blog feel that way from time to time. I know I censor mine a lot since I know my family reads it. Don't worry. You are doing just fine.

[boy]

I really admire you for your candor and bravery. From the feedback you get, I think you know that your posts have made a difference in people's lives. CJ is right. You are doing just fine.

[Anita]

Danielle - You cannot delete the blog. If it helps at all...I am (at least) "one person with Fibro" who has found some "sense of relief or community". I'm still working on getting it right, but you've helped so much by putting yourself out there and you've pointed me in some very positive directions. In my little world you've done a lot of good. Thank you for that!

[magickat]

I agree with CJ... we all have those moments where we want to maybe delete our blogs. But I hope you don't ever follow through. Your blog has been a lot for many people. I am sure with your openness about your thyroid complications you have been VERY helpful to others who struggle as well. I am sure with your honesty about the financial stuff you have shown other people they are not alone.

And darnit - your blog gave us the chance to "meet" and become friends. How lucky am I you are writing? How lucky are we all!